it’s so hard to forget someone who had meant everything to you for a long time with whom you’d a long future planned and somehow it all went bad , went sour without you even knowing . You both move on thinking it’s for the better maybe . But is it actually ? still whenever you come across those pictures and videos why does it feel like you both were meant to be? Maybe your even try again but it never feels the same it still doesn’t feel like that passionate kiss you had at the staircase . You keep trying and every time you realize more than the other person you can’t be the same and the worst part is when it strikes you that you don’t feel the same , you force yourself into the old feelings but you just can’t . What would you do then ? moving on feels bad staying doesn’t feel right and there’s no in between after what has happened . Well that’s me – I’m stuck in this limbo for years now , I try to go back and every time I fail to pull out the same old feelings and I can’t even blame myself because I knew staying in it would’ve been toxic but why does walking away feel wrong that too after so many years ? I’ve always had a problem letting go maybe it’s me ? maybe it’s just me who is stuck and everybody else has moved on . I wanna move on too but it’s not easy neither is getting back together and expressing the same feelings that i had between us years back . I’m not able to enunciate my own own feelings I myself don’t know what I want . I’m just here sitting and writing this.

it’s just so hard for me to be happy nowadays it’s like I tend to turn the happy days into sad ones . I either remember something that gets me into tears or I just feel like I don’t have the right to be happy because everytime I remember myself beaming with joy I know for sure something dark has followed it . It’s just got into my system that’s how I process happiness – a premonition of something grim . Why do I always strip myself off the happiness I deserve . I’ve always known that dark times are followed by good but why is it the opposite for me it’s just weird for me to say I’m scared to be happy and I feel foolish to even say it out loud let alone share it with someone and that’s the whole point I’m writing here . I’ve locked my smile into this cage whose keys I haven’t got my hands on ever and how much ever I try to find those keys or to remake them it just feels impossible .

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